Friday, August 14, 2015

Henna.

Been obsessed with the idea of having henna tattoos all over my body for years now. Finally I found a place that sells it(though it was the last one, damnit) and I went crazy right away. :)
It's not the best quality sadly, it's turning out pretty light, but I'm still gonna go ahead and draw some more. I wanna do both of my feet tommorow. :P
I'm only worried that I'll want them permanently. The idea's already itching me. :)
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Thursday, August 13, 2015

Tuesday, August 11, 2015

Late night thoughts.

1:27 am
There are only 42 days of summer left. And just thinking about it makes me sad. I love (parts of) fall and winter, too, but nothing makes me happier than these summer months. Yes, it's freaking boiling hot right now and yes, it feels like we're all gonna die, but.. I'm always half naked, and the days last so long, and the nights are so warm and so full of stars, and I can be barefoot more than I am in shoes.. Do I even need to continue? Doesn't get better than that, at least for me it doesn't.
Those simple pleasures mean everything.

And so far, this summer has probably been the greatest one, ever
Even though I worked a bunch and was running on 4 hours of sleep at almost all times (ok, on some energy drinks here and there, too :P ) - I loved every minute of it.
I danced a ton, I drank, I laughed, listened to amazing music, and hugged a bunch, and had my heart warm so much, and kissed so insanely, 
and felt so connected, and loved by, and in love with the people around me.. And with myself.

I really do feel at ease and something is very different about me, even though on the surface, it all looks the same. And trust me, I do have a few things to be worried about, even. But it just doesn't happen. So maybe it's true what they say, about women in their 30's? How you never feel more comfortable and in love with life as you do in your dirty thirties.. I thought it was just a lame ass lie to make us feel better about getting old. :) (Guess I'm about to find out pretty soon.)
In any case, it's been a dream and I hope the next 42 days will be at least half as good. 

Today (or yesterday, by now) was one of those amazing days, as well. Nothing big or lifechanging happened, but my heart was just so full. 
It always makes me think how simple life and happiness are (and how we keep complicating it) - when I'm lying somewhere under the sky, in silence, and in no clothes and barefoot and no clock to look at, and nowhere to be, and no one to impress. 
And it always reminds me how much I want to simplify.. everything. 
So I'll keep getting rid of clothes, and stuff, and clutter, and people I don't connect with, and things that leave me with a bad feeling.. And I think it's gonna be a life long project. But that's completely fine by me. 


*Don't wanna say too much, 'cause I'd hate to fail and disappoint.. But I miss this little space a lot and I hope to update it often again, as I used to. And this time with a lot more writing. 
It's insanity to open up and ramble on the internet, I'm aware of that, especially in daytime (late night thoughts are always easier to post at the time) - but, screw it. 
Give yourself, share yourself - it's what I'm always going for, and think it's best. 
(Just don't do it in a nasty, hoe way. ;))

Good night. 
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Monday, July 27, 2015

the big chill.



Earth and sky, woods and fields, lakes and rivers, the mountain and the sea, are excellent schoolmasters, 
and teach some of us more than we can ever learn from books.
John Lubbock


I thank you God for this most amazing day, for the leaping greenly spirits of trees, 
and for the blue dream of sky and for everything which is natural, 
which is infinite, 
which is yes.
e. e. cummings
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